No complaints. It’s good to be in love.
No complaints. It’s good to be in love.
John Green, Paper Towns.
This book is the sort of book that after you finish reading it, you feel like crying partially because the book made you feel like crying, and partially because what the book made you come to conclude about your own life made you feel like crying, and partially because you finished the book and now it’s over. If I ever become a writer, I hope I can do that to people.
I love John Green.
I am blessed.
Right from the start, I knew I found a home for my heart.
It’s almost 2013. Where does the time go? Christmas came and went. It gets less sad every year. I miss my dad a lot during the holidays but it’s okay. That’s part of my life. It always will be.
So much has changed in a year. I cannot believe how much has changed in a year.
I’ve never been so happy. Or so in love.
I’ll love you for a thousand more.
Over two months since I’ve posted last? I’ve become such a slacker. Unfortunately, this semester has been busy enough that SLEEPING is on the back burner. Tumblr? Not on the stove at all. It might not even be in the kitchen. I think it’s hanging out somewhere in the backyard.
I’ll try to be better.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Appropriate, as I’m feeling so incredibly thankful lately. Let’s make a list, shall we?
I’m thankful for the following:
my family. my mom, who loves me unconditionally and is by far the best person I know. my dad, who loved me so much that he continues to shape and impact my life every single day every though he isn’t here. a house I not only have to live in, but can call home. my own bedroom. emmy, who consistently makes my life. the love that permeates all of it. my friends. saturday nights with Alissa. singing in the car with Jess. the friends I have from high school who I can go months and months without seeing but when I do, it feels like we still spend every day together. everyone in Ypsilanti who makes it feel like my home away from home. all of the people in my life who, as corny as it sounds, truly do know me better than I know myself. the memories and the laughter. the studio. that I walk into work feeling perfectly content because more often than not, there’s no where else I’d really rather be. that my boss and my coworkers make up some of my best friends and favorite people in the world. that it has allowed me to meet some of the most important people in my life, girls I used to dance with who I don’t get to see very often but will still invariably be in my wedding. the little kids who run into the office and call me ‘miss abby’ with a huge grin on their face and sit on my lap as they tell me about their day. that I legitimately love my job. my boyfriend. that I have found someone who will listen to every ridiculous story I want to tell. someone who adores me every though I’m completely insane. someone who argues with me until I want to scream, and then can make me laugh when I’m at my most infuriated. someone who makes me breathe easier. and last but most certainly not least, my faith. prayer, for when I’m my most devastated and my very happiest. unconditional love from my Father, who taketh away, but also giveth, which I should try to remember. a God that gave everything I just said to me even though I don’t deserve any of it…not a bit.
What are you thankful for?
What a month it has been.
Today, two of my favorite people in the entire world (including my best friend) got married.
I was lucky enough to be maid of honor. I spent the whole day with Hannah. Setting up the reception. Getting our hair done. Getting ready at the church. Standing up and sobbing not-so-inconspicuously as she said ‘I do’. Taking pictures with a badass wedding photographer. Making a toast which I also sobbed through. Eating food. Eating more food. And dancing, dancing, dancing until I literally could hardly walk.
During the last song, a really beautiful a cappella version of ‘I’m Yours’ by Jason Mraz, as I danced with the best man, I looked over and saw Hannah and Jim dancing together, just beaming. Laughing. Gazing into each other’s eyes like there was nobody else in the world. I don’t know that I’ve ever seen two people so happy and so in love. And at that moment, I could not be more thankful. For them, in my life….and that they have found each other. Words are incapable of expressing how much they mean to me.
It was the perfect wedding. As the last song finished, Hannah started crying because she was so happy. And that made every moment of work, every cent spent, every single thing we had to do to get ready for the big day so, so worth it. It’s an amazing feeling, to be able to see someone you love so much that happy.
Honestly, it was just the best day. One of the best days of my life thus far. I’ll never forget it. I’ll probably never attend another wedding where I love both the bride and the groom so much, either. I don’t know. I’m just happy, and I’m so excited for them, and I feel so blessed.
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world.
I feel terrible.